Sometimes you know when you are making a bad decision, but you make it anyway.
I’m not sure why we do it. Maybe it’s because our desire or want or hope is greater than our reasoning at the time.
We do it frequently though, even if it’s just that extra dessert, or extra helping of potatoes that ends up sitting in our gut like a rock for the rest of the day.
There are times we are pressured into making a decision we don’t think is the best. We just can’t keep saying no, so we cave in.
But I think the worst is when we make a decision that goes against our better judgement with no pressure and lots of time to rationally think it through.
I did that a few weeks ago.
One of the guys I play hockey with on Saturday mornings entered a team in a tournament … and I said yes to playing.
I knew that saying yes meant playing more hockey in one day than would be good for me.
I also was unsure how my knee would hold up playing all day long. I have a torn ACL that I wear a custom brace for. But as I have gotten older, I have found that my knee is not as strong as it was twenty years ago.
As a result, now I will not play hockey two days in a row, just to give my knee a rest.
A tournament would tax it for sure.
I discovered that we were guaranteed three games in this tournament and yet I still said yes. Even when I gave the organizer my money for the tourney, I said to him, “This goes against my better judgement.”
What was I thinking?
I know what I wasn’t thinking. I wasn’t thinking that I’m almost 63 years of age, and no longer have boundless, unlimited energy.
I wasn’t thinking that I had a heart attack seven years ago and that hockey is not the greatest sport for the heart.
The idea of playing hockey all day still resonated with my emotions, but my body and mind were screaming, “Who are you kidding, Paul?!”
I got myself so into the idea that when I heard we were going to have three full lines I was disappointed – disappointed because that would mean I wouldn’t get that much ice time.
What was I thinking? Playing three games in one day, I’ll get all the ice time I need and then some. I will be so hockey-d out after three games that I will want to take a break from the ice for a couple of weeks.
The decision to play in this tournament was purely based in some recesses of my 25 year old psyche, that grabbed control of my 62 year old mind and wrestled it into a tap out hold that I couldn’t say no to.
At any rate, I was in and the tourney is just about to get underway. What have I done?(read about it here)
Here’s the thing: Sometimes we get pressured, played or simply convinced to do something that God would not approve of. Sometimes we just have a desire or want that leads us where we should not go. But sometimes we just walk head on into sin – no excuse, no one or thing to blame. We just make a bad decision. God can forgive those sins too. Don’t think you can’t go to Him and repent.
That’s Life!
Paul
Question: What have you done lately that you have no excuse for? Leave your comments below.